Morning Sunshine... :)
Sebulan + 2 minggu = 6 minggu = 44 hari i'd been leaving, jauh dari ruangan maya ku. Mungkin tidak dapat tidak, 30 coretan dapatku pahatkan di sini. Tapi aku gagal melunaskan setiaku pada mata kamu untuk meluah, pada wajah kamu untuk melakar senyum. Maaf. Seribu kali maaf. Hari ini aku datang padamu tapi bukan seperti biasa, "aku tanpa berfikir"... pelik kan? Pagi ini jiwa ku seolah kosong, fikiran ini seolah sebuah mesin yang kaku, hati bagai tak berperasaan. Wah! Kronik! Really?? No, of course la tak... I & My Thoughts, mana boleh berenggang :P
Ada je benda yang nak ku pahatkan di sini...
Beloved mama, Happy 44th Birthday which was on February 7 yang lalu..
Btw, Happy Birthday once again jugak to my beloved youngest brother. February 13. Maafkan kakak sebab celebrate it lambat. Semalam baru dapat. Kira okie la tu kan? Kenyang sampai tertidur dalam kereta...not bad, huh? Tak sangka mama pun suka pilihanku. Apa tak nye, Triple Platter + Thai Seafood + Tempura Prawny lagi...
So long u're happy, i'm happy for you.. :)
Okie la, untuk coretan seterusnya...i'll be here again tonight, InsyaAllah... :)
Showing posts with label Live a Life with Love.... Show all posts
Showing posts with label Live a Life with Love.... Show all posts
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
Specially Dedicated To Someone Who My Heart Will Belong To... InsyaAllah :)
I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And theres a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my *love* and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together {in Jannah}
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
And theres a couple word I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you...loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart.
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And theres a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my *love* and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together {in Jannah}
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
And theres a couple word I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you...loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
My Heart's Flying Without Wings... ( :
Tomorrow i'm gonna face another day of practicum. Oh My..Oh My..Oh My! Another 25 days to go excluding holidays! Say yeah, I'm counting down day by day. I know i'll be missing them somehow, but i want my life back...no stress, no shouting angrily, no worries of not finishing syllabus, no such things! I want time for myself, Pinky Diary and my Sunshine. Also, I want time to finish The Princess Plot...but for now my time goes with the flow thinking of lesson plans, preparing materials, observations, projects...yerrr...tiring, exhausting! I feel all these maybe because of coming holidays... I can't wait even for a second! I miss my family, my beloved ones, my cutie niece and cousins...Thinking of those things makes my heart flying..so high in the sky..without wings..
I LOVE YA! I MISS YA SO MUCH!
See ya all there, InsyaAllah.
I LOVE YA! I MISS YA SO MUCH!
See ya all there, InsyaAllah.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Jahilnya Kita Dalam Masyarakat Yang Kembali Jahiliyah...
Selamat Pagi Sunshine...
Jendela pagi ini dibuka dengan satu curahan rasa yang tak tertanggung lagi untuk hatiku menjerit marah, jiwaku menangis sedih. Hari semalam senyumku tawar bila mendengar satu perkhabaran yang menyentuh hatiku sebagai seorang manusia. Sudah menjadi kes terpencil sebenarnya tapi hanya kudengar melalui media.
Malam sebelumnya memang aku dapat merasai sesuatu yang tak enak. Aku tak dapat lelapkan mata hingga tepat jam 5. I've no idea why. Tapi ku lalui siang keesokannya seperti biasa. Hampir pukul 4 petang semalam, my best friend balik dari kelas. "Ada orang buang bayi. Betul. Kat simpang sana," katanya dengan nada yang berbaur sedih dan marah.
Kenderaan polis berlegar - legar. Menurut kawanku, seorang lelaki berbangsa India called the police right after dia nampak seorang bayi dalam bungkusan plastik.
Astaghfirullah..air mata tiba - tiba menitis. Dalam bulan yang baik, dalam keadaan umat Islam masih dalam ibadah, dalam suasana terik matahari di luar sana seorang anak kecil yang baru lahir dan belum mampu membuka mata melihat dunia ditinggalkan, diletak dalam plastik nipis, disangkut pada tiang papan tanda di tepi jalan... Ya Allah..hati mana yang tak sebak. Satu anugerah dan amanah yang tak ternilai itu bukankah seharusnya disambut hadirnya dengan azan dan iqamah yang suci??
Status dan identiti belum dapat dipastikan. Melayu, Cina atau India sekalipun anak kecil tu tak berdosa, kenapa harus terima hukuman atas kesalahan ibu dan "kononnya" bapanya sendiri!!!
Aku tak faham kenapa kebanyakannya adalah berketurunan Melayu. Adakah masyarakat kita dah kembali ke zaman jahiliyah?? Bunuh diri, bunuh sesama manusia, zina dan rogol, bunuh zuriat sendiri... Gila!! Memang gila!! Bukannya tak tahu apa akibatnya tapi sengaja menafikan ajaran agama. Yang si lelaki, lari daripada tanggungjawab. Si perempuan, lari daripada malu. Dah berlaku, malu. Sebelum berlaku kenapa tak malu?? Lebih malu dengan manusia yang dicipta daripada malu dengan Maha Pencipta?? Masuk paper, masuk TV, tutup muka. Buat apa nak tutup? Keluar, repeat the same mistake. Sebab apa?? Kena tangkap khalwat, just kena bayar denda. Ada duit, semua benda difikirkan mudah. "Lahir anak, u buang, habis cerita...your dosa belakang kira...nanti dah tua, u taubatlaa...".
No, no, no..sangkaan u meleset..u ingat nyawa yang Allah bagi free ni sampai bila-bila?? U fikir your life span 1000 tahun punya lama?? Benar Allah Maha Pengampun bagi mereka2 yang melakukan taubat nasuha...tapi nak tunggu bila dah tua?? Tanya sikit, sure u sempat tua ka??
Haiwan pun sayangkan anak, tapi kita sebagai manusia?? Di mana kemanusiaan kita?? Aku pasti paling tidak pun manusia yang tak bertanggungjawab tu akan dihantui rasa bersalah hingga akhir nyawa mereka. Mungkin itu kali pertama mereka lakukan perbuatan terkutuk itu, dan mungkin juga tidak. Apapun, mungkin hukuman di dunia dapat kau lari, tapi hukuman Allah itulah yang pasti. Kau teruskanlah hidup dalam syurga cinta dunia yang kau puja tanpa kau bayangi maha indahnya syurga yang dijanjikan Allah. Larilah dari penjara dunia tanpa memikirkan azab yang maha pedih di akhirat nanti.
Alhamdulillah bayi tu masih hidup walaupun tanpa ibu bapa di sisi...Menurut rakan - rakan lain yang menyaksikan sendiri, khabarnya bayi lelaki tu sangat comel dan berada dalam keadaan baik. Tanpa tangisan...kerana dia tahu Allah hampir dengannya. Terima kasih tuhan kerana dengan kekuasaanMu Kau pelihara jasadnya di bawah terik mentari, dalam keadaan tidak disusukan, tiada kelengkapan dan keperluan.
Anak kecil yang comel dan baik, membesarlah dengan sihat walau di mana pun dirimu berada. Semoga zaman kanak - kanak dan remaja mu nanti terdidik dengan sempurna, dan semoga dewasamu jauh dari kesalahan yang pernah dilakukan "ibu" dan "bapa"mu...
Ya Allah lindungi dan peliharalah dia dengan kasih sayangMu. Aku hambamu yang lemah memohon agar kau tetapkan imanku dan peliharalah aku dari segala yang Kau murkai. Sesungguhnya aku tidak terkecuali untuk cenderung melakukan sesuatu seperti itu kerana aku juga insan biasa seperti mereka. Maka janganlah Kau palingkan hatiku setelah kau berikan petunjukMu. Dekatkan aku hanya pada lelaki yang berada di kalangan hambaMu yang beriman dan bertakwa kepadaMu...yang menganggap cinta itu keranaMu. Hindarkan aku daripada lelaki yang menganggap cinta itu nafsu. Aku mohon dengan sangat, aku mohon dengan sangat...
Amiin Ya Rabbal 'Alamiin.
Jendela pagi ini dibuka dengan satu curahan rasa yang tak tertanggung lagi untuk hatiku menjerit marah, jiwaku menangis sedih. Hari semalam senyumku tawar bila mendengar satu perkhabaran yang menyentuh hatiku sebagai seorang manusia. Sudah menjadi kes terpencil sebenarnya tapi hanya kudengar melalui media.
Malam sebelumnya memang aku dapat merasai sesuatu yang tak enak. Aku tak dapat lelapkan mata hingga tepat jam 5. I've no idea why. Tapi ku lalui siang keesokannya seperti biasa. Hampir pukul 4 petang semalam, my best friend balik dari kelas. "Ada orang buang bayi. Betul. Kat simpang sana," katanya dengan nada yang berbaur sedih dan marah.
Kenderaan polis berlegar - legar. Menurut kawanku, seorang lelaki berbangsa India called the police right after dia nampak seorang bayi dalam bungkusan plastik.
Astaghfirullah..air mata tiba - tiba menitis. Dalam bulan yang baik, dalam keadaan umat Islam masih dalam ibadah, dalam suasana terik matahari di luar sana seorang anak kecil yang baru lahir dan belum mampu membuka mata melihat dunia ditinggalkan, diletak dalam plastik nipis, disangkut pada tiang papan tanda di tepi jalan... Ya Allah..hati mana yang tak sebak. Satu anugerah dan amanah yang tak ternilai itu bukankah seharusnya disambut hadirnya dengan azan dan iqamah yang suci??
Status dan identiti belum dapat dipastikan. Melayu, Cina atau India sekalipun anak kecil tu tak berdosa, kenapa harus terima hukuman atas kesalahan ibu dan "kononnya" bapanya sendiri!!!
Aku tak faham kenapa kebanyakannya adalah berketurunan Melayu. Adakah masyarakat kita dah kembali ke zaman jahiliyah?? Bunuh diri, bunuh sesama manusia, zina dan rogol, bunuh zuriat sendiri... Gila!! Memang gila!! Bukannya tak tahu apa akibatnya tapi sengaja menafikan ajaran agama. Yang si lelaki, lari daripada tanggungjawab. Si perempuan, lari daripada malu. Dah berlaku, malu. Sebelum berlaku kenapa tak malu?? Lebih malu dengan manusia yang dicipta daripada malu dengan Maha Pencipta?? Masuk paper, masuk TV, tutup muka. Buat apa nak tutup? Keluar, repeat the same mistake. Sebab apa?? Kena tangkap khalwat, just kena bayar denda. Ada duit, semua benda difikirkan mudah. "Lahir anak, u buang, habis cerita...your dosa belakang kira...nanti dah tua, u taubatlaa...".
No, no, no..sangkaan u meleset..u ingat nyawa yang Allah bagi free ni sampai bila-bila?? U fikir your life span 1000 tahun punya lama?? Benar Allah Maha Pengampun bagi mereka2 yang melakukan taubat nasuha...tapi nak tunggu bila dah tua?? Tanya sikit, sure u sempat tua ka??
Haiwan pun sayangkan anak, tapi kita sebagai manusia?? Di mana kemanusiaan kita?? Aku pasti paling tidak pun manusia yang tak bertanggungjawab tu akan dihantui rasa bersalah hingga akhir nyawa mereka. Mungkin itu kali pertama mereka lakukan perbuatan terkutuk itu, dan mungkin juga tidak. Apapun, mungkin hukuman di dunia dapat kau lari, tapi hukuman Allah itulah yang pasti. Kau teruskanlah hidup dalam syurga cinta dunia yang kau puja tanpa kau bayangi maha indahnya syurga yang dijanjikan Allah. Larilah dari penjara dunia tanpa memikirkan azab yang maha pedih di akhirat nanti.
Alhamdulillah bayi tu masih hidup walaupun tanpa ibu bapa di sisi...Menurut rakan - rakan lain yang menyaksikan sendiri, khabarnya bayi lelaki tu sangat comel dan berada dalam keadaan baik. Tanpa tangisan...kerana dia tahu Allah hampir dengannya. Terima kasih tuhan kerana dengan kekuasaanMu Kau pelihara jasadnya di bawah terik mentari, dalam keadaan tidak disusukan, tiada kelengkapan dan keperluan.
Anak kecil yang comel dan baik, membesarlah dengan sihat walau di mana pun dirimu berada. Semoga zaman kanak - kanak dan remaja mu nanti terdidik dengan sempurna, dan semoga dewasamu jauh dari kesalahan yang pernah dilakukan "ibu" dan "bapa"mu...
Ya Allah lindungi dan peliharalah dia dengan kasih sayangMu. Aku hambamu yang lemah memohon agar kau tetapkan imanku dan peliharalah aku dari segala yang Kau murkai. Sesungguhnya aku tidak terkecuali untuk cenderung melakukan sesuatu seperti itu kerana aku juga insan biasa seperti mereka. Maka janganlah Kau palingkan hatiku setelah kau berikan petunjukMu. Dekatkan aku hanya pada lelaki yang berada di kalangan hambaMu yang beriman dan bertakwa kepadaMu...yang menganggap cinta itu keranaMu. Hindarkan aku daripada lelaki yang menganggap cinta itu nafsu. Aku mohon dengan sangat, aku mohon dengan sangat...
Amiin Ya Rabbal 'Alamiin.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Oh Silly Lily!
Selamat pagi Sunshine...
Diari,
Pagi ni sangat indah, keadaan yang amat tenang terasa sejak awal kelopak mata dibuka. Semalam sepatutnya ku lalui hari yang cantik dengan sempurna, tapi sebaliknya...hmm..
Pada awal paginya hari semalam bermula seperti biasa. Aku siapkan materials untuk revision, siapkan pakaian...sempat dengar favourite songs, blogging..en ya, seperti biasa.. In the afternoon, sebelum ke sekolah rasanya dah siap awal tapi jadi lewat jugak...aduiyaiii..!! Tapi Alhamdulillah the road was not so busy..so i reached there about 20 minutes before the bell rang. At school evrything was okie..but on the way home, my car kena langgar dari belakang!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....
hate it, hate it, hate it!!! pity my Herbie... Sape la orang tu yang doesn't know manners at all. Memangla semua orang were in a hurry. Rushing for breaking fast, tapi agak-agak lah...ish3..!! I'm still wandering why even if we drive carefully and behave ourselves, this thing still happen no matter how kan? Jawapannya...what to do, benda dah nak jadi..[nak sedapkan hati]:p
Moral of the story: The thing happened, was not too serious, we don't know who did that, then i'd rather forget it and forgive. Life's too short to keep thinking of silly things. That's it. It's okie Herbie, ada duit kita repair awak balik okie?! :)
Diari,
Pagi ni sangat indah, keadaan yang amat tenang terasa sejak awal kelopak mata dibuka. Semalam sepatutnya ku lalui hari yang cantik dengan sempurna, tapi sebaliknya...hmm..
Pada awal paginya hari semalam bermula seperti biasa. Aku siapkan materials untuk revision, siapkan pakaian...sempat dengar favourite songs, blogging..en ya, seperti biasa.. In the afternoon, sebelum ke sekolah rasanya dah siap awal tapi jadi lewat jugak...aduiyaiii..!! Tapi Alhamdulillah the road was not so busy..so i reached there about 20 minutes before the bell rang. At school evrything was okie..but on the way home, my car kena langgar dari belakang!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....
hate it, hate it, hate it!!! pity my Herbie... Sape la orang tu yang doesn't know manners at all. Memangla semua orang were in a hurry. Rushing for breaking fast, tapi agak-agak lah...ish3..!! I'm still wandering why even if we drive carefully and behave ourselves, this thing still happen no matter how kan? Jawapannya...what to do, benda dah nak jadi..[nak sedapkan hati]:p
Moral of the story: The thing happened, was not too serious, we don't know who did that, then i'd rather forget it and forgive. Life's too short to keep thinking of silly things. That's it. It's okie Herbie, ada duit kita repair awak balik okie?! :)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Memoirs of A Little Princess...
Finale!! Finale! Finale!
Yezza...finally here u come...
March 19, 2010 ~ Microteaching
March 23, 2010 ~ Theatre in TESL
March 24, 2010 ~ Mandarin
March 25, 2010 ~ English for Academic Purposes
March 26, 2010 ~ Teaching of Literature in ESL
Just passed by the first trial...4 more to go..
Let's take a break...what to write ya...hmm..
I really have no idea how to describe my feelings right now...
Tensed up? ~nope...
Down? Like what Jay Sean keep sayin'--> Baby...are you down5x..? ~nope XD
Gloomy? ~also...nope!
then...
Happy? ~erm sort of...
but..the tone's not mirroring that way..
Then...stop guessing..okie..
U won't get it...
"MIXED FEELING"
~ indescribable
~ invisible
~ unpredictable
Sometimes we do feel that the more we learn somethin' we want, the more we're gonna lose things we need...
"...The little girl with a book, a pencil in her hands is now becoming a young lady with the same "toys" in her hands after 20 years..."
"...The little girl with a watch on her wrist is now becoming a young lady with the same "tool" on her left wrist..."
"...The little girl who her fingers keep dancing freely ~ writing her name on a piece of paper together with ruler and eraser... She is now becoming a person who need not to write with the same "guides" anymore..."
"...The little girl who loves drawing ~ bringing her colored pencils by her side, looking at pictures she likes to guide... She is now becoming a person who can sketch without the same "start"..."
"...The little girl who each time looking into a mirror saying her words, looking at the moon and the stars in the sky telling her wishes... She is now becoming a person who puts her "beliefs & hopes" only to Allah the Almighty God, The Lord..."
"...The little girl who keeps singing the story of her life is now able to write it out as her "poetry of heart"..."
"...The little girl who keeps dreaming of being a princess as in the fairy tales she read, of the beauty they have... She is now becoming a "princess" who fights for rights & defends her pride..."
With these "INDESCRIBABLE, INVISIBLE, UNPREDICTABLE' feelings i have inside, I realize that even though i've passed by a thousand miles, traveled places of choice & walked far across the infinitive distance, there are still some things i'd forget, regret...because life's not forever as smooth as silk, as easy as ABC, as beautiful as blooms of roses, as merry as dancing daffodils...we do have sunny day, sometimes it does change to gloomy day...we do have cloudy day, but sometimes might turn up to rainy day...
With these "INDESCRIBABLE, INVISIBLE, UNPREDICTABLE" feelings i have inside, I keep answering each question from people around me...asking about the "only 4 - letter" word, L.O.V.E...with "many" ways of questioning:~
*Kwn2 lain dah ada special one..how about u?
*Did u find someone....bla..bla..bla..?
*Have u found a person...begini..begitu..?
*What do u think about him...okie tak..?
*Are u falling for someone...? nak tahu..nak tahu jugak...cerita lah..
*Didn't u crush on somebody before...or maybe among ur friends..?
*If anything just tell me okie? I'm waiting...
*Do u want me to introduce him to u?just get to know each other 1st..okie?
*Nak berkenalan, boleh?
*Ur current status? Single? Hmm..mesti dah berpunya kan...
If let say I answer "yes, i have someone special", other types of questioning will come out:~
*Who is he?
*Among ur friends or others?
*Study sama course eh?
*Mesti budak course lain ni...kan3?
*Gaya mcm mana? Mesti mcm ustaz kan...
*Nanti jadi cikgu, mesti ur partner cikgu jugak kan...betul tak?
*Mcm mana boleh kenal?
*Haizz...siapa la lelaki tu ye..mesti mcm ni..mcm tu...bla3..kan..?
*Where did u both meet?
*Since when?
*How long have u been with him?
*Handsome tak? Ada pic?
*What did make u choose him?
*Dah jumpa parents?
*Tak nak kenalkan ke?
If I answer "No, haven't found yet"...also the other type of questioning will come out:~
*Ni kes memilih sangat la ni kan?
*What are the criteria...actually...bla..bla..bla..?
*Perfectionist? Are you?
*"Choosy n picky" type of girl?
*Sbb tak handsome?
*Takkan takde perasaan langsung?
*Tak try berkawan?
*Mesti belum ada yang berkenan di hati lagi ni...kan?
*Tu laa..jual mahal..betul tak?
*Takkan la takde yg berkenan?
I wont get mad, sick, or tired of all these...because i know there're many people concern about me...
One thing i'd like to say is that, the more we learn, the higher level we achieve, the better things we get, or the more mission we accomplish...behind all the things we want, there is some things we need... I admit that i need the "only 4 - letter" word...because...
"...The little girl who has been writing, drawing and singing her story of life for a long time..now is doing the same things..."
"...The little girl who has been depending on her watch for timing, looking into a mirror saying her words and telling her wishes to the moon and the stars...is now doing the same through prayers..."
"...And..The little girl who has been dreaming of being a princess as in the fairy tales she read all this while...is now preparing herself to be the best for her future prince..."
Yezza...finally here u come...
March 19, 2010 ~ Microteaching
March 23, 2010 ~ Theatre in TESL
March 24, 2010 ~ Mandarin
March 25, 2010 ~ English for Academic Purposes
March 26, 2010 ~ Teaching of Literature in ESL
Just passed by the first trial...4 more to go..
Let's take a break...what to write ya...hmm..
I really have no idea how to describe my feelings right now...
Tensed up? ~nope...
Down? Like what Jay Sean keep sayin'--> Baby...are you down5x..? ~nope XD
Gloomy? ~also...nope!
then...
Happy? ~erm sort of...
but..the tone's not mirroring that way..
Then...stop guessing..okie..
U won't get it...
"MIXED FEELING"
~ indescribable
~ invisible
~ unpredictable
Sometimes we do feel that the more we learn somethin' we want, the more we're gonna lose things we need...
"...The little girl with a book, a pencil in her hands is now becoming a young lady with the same "toys" in her hands after 20 years..."
"...The little girl with a watch on her wrist is now becoming a young lady with the same "tool" on her left wrist..."
"...The little girl who her fingers keep dancing freely ~ writing her name on a piece of paper together with ruler and eraser... She is now becoming a person who need not to write with the same "guides" anymore..."
"...The little girl who loves drawing ~ bringing her colored pencils by her side, looking at pictures she likes to guide... She is now becoming a person who can sketch without the same "start"..."
"...The little girl who each time looking into a mirror saying her words, looking at the moon and the stars in the sky telling her wishes... She is now becoming a person who puts her "beliefs & hopes" only to Allah the Almighty God, The Lord..."
"...The little girl who keeps singing the story of her life is now able to write it out as her "poetry of heart"..."
"...The little girl who keeps dreaming of being a princess as in the fairy tales she read, of the beauty they have... She is now becoming a "princess" who fights for rights & defends her pride..."
With these "INDESCRIBABLE, INVISIBLE, UNPREDICTABLE' feelings i have inside, I realize that even though i've passed by a thousand miles, traveled places of choice & walked far across the infinitive distance, there are still some things i'd forget, regret...because life's not forever as smooth as silk, as easy as ABC, as beautiful as blooms of roses, as merry as dancing daffodils...we do have sunny day, sometimes it does change to gloomy day...we do have cloudy day, but sometimes might turn up to rainy day...
With these "INDESCRIBABLE, INVISIBLE, UNPREDICTABLE" feelings i have inside, I keep answering each question from people around me...asking about the "only 4 - letter" word, L.O.V.E...with "many" ways of questioning:~
*Kwn2 lain dah ada special one..how about u?
*Did u find someone....bla..bla..bla..?
*Have u found a person...begini..begitu..?
*What do u think about him...okie tak..?
*Are u falling for someone...? nak tahu..nak tahu jugak...cerita lah..
*Didn't u crush on somebody before...or maybe among ur friends..?
*If anything just tell me okie? I'm waiting...
*Do u want me to introduce him to u?just get to know each other 1st..okie?
*Nak berkenalan, boleh?
*Ur current status? Single? Hmm..mesti dah berpunya kan...
If let say I answer "yes, i have someone special", other types of questioning will come out:~
*Who is he?
*Among ur friends or others?
*Study sama course eh?
*Mesti budak course lain ni...kan3?
*Gaya mcm mana? Mesti mcm ustaz kan...
*Nanti jadi cikgu, mesti ur partner cikgu jugak kan...betul tak?
*Mcm mana boleh kenal?
*Haizz...siapa la lelaki tu ye..mesti mcm ni..mcm tu...bla3..kan..?
*Where did u both meet?
*Since when?
*How long have u been with him?
*Handsome tak? Ada pic?
*What did make u choose him?
*Dah jumpa parents?
*Tak nak kenalkan ke?
If I answer "No, haven't found yet"...also the other type of questioning will come out:~
*Ni kes memilih sangat la ni kan?
*What are the criteria...actually...bla..bla..bla..?
*Perfectionist? Are you?
*"Choosy n picky" type of girl?
*Sbb tak handsome?
*Takkan takde perasaan langsung?
*Tak try berkawan?
*Mesti belum ada yang berkenan di hati lagi ni...kan?
*Tu laa..jual mahal..betul tak?
*Takkan la takde yg berkenan?
I wont get mad, sick, or tired of all these...because i know there're many people concern about me...
One thing i'd like to say is that, the more we learn, the higher level we achieve, the better things we get, or the more mission we accomplish...behind all the things we want, there is some things we need... I admit that i need the "only 4 - letter" word...because...
"...The little girl who has been writing, drawing and singing her story of life for a long time..now is doing the same things..."
"...The little girl who has been depending on her watch for timing, looking into a mirror saying her words and telling her wishes to the moon and the stars...is now doing the same through prayers..."
"...And..The little girl who has been dreaming of being a princess as in the fairy tales she read all this while...is now preparing herself to be the best for her future prince..."
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